at that point of time, i really thought that it is impossible for us to return back to how it was anymore. at that point of time, i looked back and cried, because somewhere deep down i fear that we can never be the same again. there'll always be something there, in my heart.
i don't know anymore, my heart keeps going back and forth because of you. and it's so contradicting that i want us to go back to how happy we were, go back to how i was always loving you, but yet i refuse to want the present you gone.
wouldn't it be perfect if the past me and the current you were together? we'd have made the best couple isn't it?
why couldn't you see how bad i wanted you and how much i loved you back then, before this happened, you had to take them all for granted and now you want that me back. maybe it's true how they say when you care lesser, they start to care more.
i don't know myself how do i find that side of me back, i told you my feelings faded a lot, but even if they did, i still love you. because the initial amount was such a great deal, that no matter how much it subsided, it will always be there.
but looking at how they keep coming and going, and how feelings are not meant to go away, i realised, they're just kept away, i kept them away.
because once i get hurt, a part of me shuts off, and this time it's the part which contains most of the feelings towards you.
looks like i need more time than i thought i do, looks like this damage is done far worse than what i had imagined.
No comments:
Post a Comment