Thursday, December 5, 2013

The future is worse than bleak

Why the hell is this all coming back
Why are all my thoughts jumbled up
Why am I being this unmotivated again
I'm starting to think it's not anything nor anyone else, it is me 
I'm the irresponsible and insensible one
I need to grow up.
I NEED to.
But how do I do it?
Why am I such a wreck?
Why can't I ever focus on what I want?
I say I want to become someone dependable, yet I'm doing absolutely zero to achieve anything

Fuck me, really
saying that I hate myself would be an extreme understatement.
I'm a mess
I'm a fucked up gone case
I wish I wasn't me
I wish... there isn't any me to begin with
Fuck off you useless scum self

No comments:

Post a Comment