It seems like each year is passing by faster than the last, especially so for 2013.
this year is very different, in happy ways, and especially painful ways.
2013 is the year I started with heartache, 2013 is also the year I learnt to get over whatever sadness I have in front of me. because 2013 taught me that the hurt rooted from any relationships is nothing compared to losing anyone you love forever.
From the trivial things like changing my hairstyle back to bangs (and it has been and perhaps will be like this forever - ok for now), starting my first full-time job at MOE (and it has ended lol), changing job environments (currently 3rd) to enjoying first overseas trip to Genting with the boy, celebrated my 21st with amazingly all the people I love together, and that I OFFICIALLY graduated.
It is also the year my mummy is diagnosed with Stage 4 colon cancer and went through a 7-hour operation. I broke down so many times during the initial period, I couldn't stand the thoughts of any possibilities of losing this woman I love so dear. I learnt how ridiculous I was in the past, I changed my ways and learnt to love her better, bit by bit.
To the latest happening of Alfred's dad passing away, the pain at that time felt was a heart-ripping kind of stab. Double blows this year, I have learnt to grow up emotionally and was forced to cope with whatever that's coming my/our ways.
But I believe everything happens for a reason, you may not know it now, you may not be able to comprehend it now. But eventually, everything will heal slowly (but never entirely) with time, and you will see better amidst your clouded thoughts and emotions.
Still learning a lot more from life itself, still trying to cope and handle emotions better.
Embrace whatever you have now, and love whoever your heart speaks of no matter if its family or lover, or even friends.
Cheers to 2013, and here's to the coming 2014.
cliché but I hope that everything will be better in the next year, sincerely.
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