He lived for those he loved and those he loved remember

I still remember the moment I picked up the phonecall on the night of 17oct- my heart dropped.
It has been almost 3 weeks since he passed away, but the heart-wrenching tug at the emotions never left. It was tough seeing how his loved ones (mine too) cried and grieve for him, while dealing with the loss of him myself, someone whom I had seen almost everyday and spent much time with.
To me, he was like a father figure, he never spoke much, he was always smiling and grinning, but he cared for us in his own subtle ways. He asked after me behind my back, he paid attention to my daily happenings, he was a wonderful and loving person, remembering and even probing for my whereabouts on the hospital bed.
saying it was difficult to handle his passing is a understatement. we miss him terribly, even i miss him so much and think of him frequently from time to time, what's more for his wife and son?
nevertheless, he fought well, he was a warrior, he won his battles and maybe this time the angels thought they would like to take him home to the lord, to end his sufferings.
daddy Oh, i pray for mummy Oh and Alfred's hearts to be comforted, i pray for all our health and well-being, i pray that you'll watch over us and stay a happy angel in the skies with Alvina, and wait till we're due to join you for a family reunion again.
thank you for always smiling at me when i went over to your place
thank you for your kind advice from time to time, they were little but precious
thank you for raising Alfred into such a fine boy, he took after you in many aspects worth noticing
thank you for leaving us with Boyce, a really grown up and sensible dog to not let us worry about him
just, thank you for your presence, you overthrew the image i had of a father all along in my heart (because of my own useless one) and taking over his position in my life for the past 1 year plus.
i will be there for both of them just like they were for me, just like you were there for me. the void and pain of losing you will never diminish, the missing will never end, but they will get better.

rest in peace our angel, we hope you'll be well in the arms of the lord above, we love you and will see you soon.

those we love don't go away, they walk beside us every day.

unseen, unheard, but always near, still loved, still missed and very dear.