I knew this was either for the good or for the worse, but I hoped it was the former. yes i knew it wasn't going to be easy, but it was going to be beneficial for her, to aid her in the battle in the long run.
However I honestly didn't know it was going to be this hard.
her hands tremble so much because of the medicine, seeing her awful face because of the nausea and vomiting, and her breaths so rapid. I want to make it better for her so bad, I want to help her share her pain.
she looks so vulnerable, and she is eating lesser because of the loss of appetite.
This is only the first session, I do wish to see her better in the coming ones once her body is kind of accustomed to the chemo medicine a little more.
Please whoever is out there, help us get over this, help her get over this obstacle.
I cannot afford for anything to happen to her, it scares me too much, even the thought of it is too much to bear.
I jolt awake every now and then at night thinking of the possibility should we lose her, and it feels like my chest could cave in and engulf me alive.
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