there's something about you

You keep me together, you keep me going for whatever that's coming my way.
I can't wait to love more of you, and hell I think I'm falling in love with you for a brand new reason every single day

"I spend 23 hours a day wondering whether we're wrong for each other, wondering whether we've got the energy that we need to get through everything that we seem to get into, whether the baggage we both bring would sink a small ship. But in the 24th hour, I realise I've been thinking about her for 23 hours and I come back to there's something about her, I can't stay away from. Something about her, that makes me want to love her"
- 24th hour enlightenment, quoted from Tumblr.

there's just something about you that makes me want more, that keeps you close to me.

carefree

Graduated, even though the woman i love most, and the one who saw me through it wasn't there to witness it with her own eyes.
I felt happy because she's happy, all i want is for her to be safe and healthy, and always smiling :')

But i had my siblings and love of my life with me, thank god for them all.

Forgive and forget

The pain, it ceases to cause a distinct ache but it doesn't mean it is no longer there

I forgive, but never forgets, that's the painful part. I can't let go. Not even things that upset me.

and then i realise

It will never be the same again, I can never trust you. Once I see or hear anything strange, my mind is automatically reminded of all that has happened and my heart closes again.
Someone told me, how is it that I chose to live with it and continue with you then, it is not healthy, I should not continue if I am not prepared to, at least mentally.
then i thought, i know why.

because it will never go away, it will never be the same. and if I really choose to be with you again only after I have settled my heart (which is never), we'll never be together, ever again.