and even now when i viewed my old posts, thought about what i had done for this almost perfect boy, i still think that my feelings for him were insane, they were so strong. i took a year to two to forget about him, wait no- to give up on him. yep, i took that long to let go of someone who wasn't even mine to begin with, and what's worse was he had others when i was trying to get him. i saw how that girl got jealous of me, got angry at me, i was there when she left too. and sadly i also witnessed it when he found himself with a significant other. i don't know what or how did i manage to stay on despite going through the pain numerous times when i see him getting together with anyone but me. he was almost perfect to me, he was the smart one- he had perfect scores for his exams and excellent grades, he was the sociable and friendly one- because there's how i got to know him, he was helpful and never rejected anyone when they asked for help, he was the flawless senior everyone loved. he was almost like... one of the unreachable stars in the night sky, one someone like me could only dream of having.
he was the only boy i boldly chased after, he was the only one everyone saw with their own eyes how i ran to him each time he needed someone.
i'm amazed by these strong feelings i found myself having for someone, will i ever be able to feel like that again?
or will what you cannot own always be most beautiful?
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